Another year...45 already?

Today is my 45th birthday.  It seems like yesterday when I graduated from high school and was about to enter college.  Now, I look at my life and wonder what happened.  I know what happened - I just did not do all of the things I wanted to do.  That is my fault and now, I need to make a change. 

I spent many years working and taking the occasional vacation.  The one vacation I took without my parents was to go with some friends to Las Vegas in 2002.  Right now, I want to pay off some bills and get a new car.  I also want to clean up my apartment and organize it the way I want.  I just need to learn to tell certain people and such "No" when they want to derail my plans.

In the next couple of weeks, I need to go see the doctor.  First, I will do the mammogram and get that out of the way.  When I see the doctor, I will have to fast and go through the whole check up.  I know my diabetes is pretty high.  I haven't been doing myself much favors mainly because I am constantly under stress, so I let that be my reason for making bad choices.  That is wrong as well.  However, I really need to be able to fix the stress issue. 

What to do today?  Well, since it is my birthday, I am going to eat a few "bad" foods.  Only because I need to get rid of it and I do not have them that often.  After this entry, I am going to fix myself some pancakes and bacon.  I think I may get a Schlotzky's sandwich for lunch and hang out with the dogs.

I am off work today and tomorrow.  I will pull my lessons for my Java and Perl courses, then work on the assignments.  Now, while that sounds like "work", I actually enjoy it as I love programming.  I am trying to improve my skills.  So, this works for me.

On to fixing breakfast for the dogs and myself as well as do some laundry.  I will post more later! 

Interesting Times Ahead...

I need to get over my nerves of going to see the doctor.  It has been well over a year since I went to see the doctor.  I know my blood sugar, cholesterol, triglycerides, and such have been off the charts for quite some time.  I know I am not doing myself much favors by not going to see the doctor.  For some reason, I have no motivation.  Not looking for a pity party here, either.  What has happened, I have allowed to happen.  What I need to figure out is how to just say "No." 

Tomorrow is Father's Day and quite honestly, I have no idea of what to get my own father for that day.  I do plan on taking him out to eat at Ruth Chris's Steak House.  I have never been there and thought that would be a really nice place to eat.  Also, I have tickets to the Rangers game.

On Wednesday, I will turn 45.  Hmmm...45.  I know it is just a number, but I have really been feeling the age creep up on me.  If I sit for prolong periods of time, my legs ache like there is no tomorrow.  Today, my fingers feel numb and tingly.  That is not a good sign.

I have found that Task Coach is really helping me stay on top of projects/requests at work.  I am so glad.  However, some things still fall through the cracks.  Mainly because I do not get the information until it is too late and that is out of my control.

Last night, I was talking with a friend.  She wants to do technical writing.  I took many courses in technical writing back in my college days.  Now, I would just like to do any kind of writing.  I worry about the status of my current job and there are days I wonder if I could make it as an author/writer.

Maybe, that is something to take courses in doing and look to it as my second career.