Taking a small break from the craziness of the day. Last week, I visited both my endocrinologist and kidney specialist. During my visits, I had shown to have lost weight and major improvement on my blood sugar, and stable on my kidney function. My kidney specialist indicated that I probably should take the pill to help alleviate water retention more often. Honestly, I just figured it was due to that monthly thing about to happen. I always retain a good bit of water right before that time.
Overall, I was pretty pleased with myself. I keep telling myself not to get lost in all of the "good" and focus on reality - I still have more weight to lose and I need to make sure I keep working hard to not eat fast, be cognizant of when I am about to binge, and make healthier choices. I am getting better, but I still have a lot of work to do on that aspect of life.
I feel the new FitBit Charge HR 2 is helping me as well. The new features on the device alert me of when I need to get up and get some steps in every hour. That helps me make sure that I am getting up to walk around and not sit for hours on end. It also helps with keeping my knees and other joints from hurting so badly when I get up to head to the bathroom or whatever. I really feel old when I try to stand after sitting for a long time. Sometimes, I wish I could scream out loud.
I cannot give up. I know I can do this and my dearest hope is to be rid of my sporatic back pain. After having to bring groceries up the stairs, my back lets me know how bad an idea that was. Unfortunately, I have to get groceries in order to cook at home. Still, I cannot give up - I must keep my head down and keep focusing on the positive.
Those of you out there with similar issues, I understand your pain. I truly do. I am trying not to wallow in self-pity because it is not going to help me out of this mess. Just doing as much as I can when I can. If that is all you can do, that is good enough. Keep trying, do not feel like you are giving up - you gave as much as you can. Rest - hit it again in 5 minutes, but never give up.