Where Am I Now - Health-wise?

Past few weeks have been crazy.  I finally made it to get my ultrasound on my uterus.  The uterus and ovaries look great, but I have a thick lining in my uterus.  Make matters worse, what is there is in globs and not layers.  So, I am scheduled for a D&C to clear that out and test for cancer.

My mother's cancer woes began with her reproductive organs.  Her cervix had cancer, so they froze the cells off in 1980 - she was cancer free after that.  Next, she had vulvular cancer in 1998.  Nutshell, the outside was scooped out, but she was cancer free.  In 2000, she was diagnosed with colon cancer.  She had a resection done and endured 9 months of chemotherapy.  In July 2008, she was diagnosed with inoperable lung cancer and lost her battle in January 2010.

So, as you can expect, I am worried and anxious.  As I explained to my counselor today, I do not want to go down as my own mother did.  It is not what she would want for me - I know that.  I remember her telling me that if she had to do it all over, I would not be here because of the pain she has had to endure with cancer.  She never wanted that for me and it upset her so much to know that it was something that would linger over my head.

My prayers are that I am worrying over nothing.  Otherwise, I pray that it is caught early enough.  Just another thing to preoccupy my spare time, I suppose.

The other day, I received a bill from a lab.   I was not sure why I was getting a bill since I have reached my maximum out of pocket deductible.  I found I was being charged for a drug test that my back specialist ordered when I was taking hydrocodone.  The lab was not "in-network", so they wanted $3600.  

I am fighting it.  The doctor's office stated that they contracted the lab for the patient's convenience.  Well, getting a $3600 bill is NOT convenient at all.  In fact, I consider it a scam.  The doctor is "in-network" and any lab work should have been done by an "in-network" lab.  If anything, next time someone wants labwork, I will be more than happy to drive my happy ass over to Lab Corp, as I do for my nephrologist, to get any lab work done.  This is just insane!

On Monday, I am scheduled to have my right side of nerve blockers injected in my back.  I hope this works.  I want so badly to be able to walk normally again.

I am working on easing myself off Facebook since the election.  People are so ugly - friends are ending friendships over who they elected.  Come on - it is easy enough to disagree.  I think I am just sick of having everyone who is upset that Clinton did not win the election cramming it down my throat that this country is racist and such.  I refuse to believe that entire nation is racist - yes, we have our minorities, just like any other country on this planet.  I wish these people could visit other areas of the world to be truly educated in how customs are.  There is a huge degree of racism and discrimination in the world.  We need to strive to be better, but this country is just like any other country in the world.  It is true.

I am also bothered by the media going on about how the Trump voters were primarily non-college educated voters.  I swear, we spend too much damn time labeling people when they could discuss by region - the urban voters vs the rural voters.  How difficult is that?  With all of the graphics that were shown, you could see that and it made sense - your everyday, hard-working farmers and so forth were making their voices heard.  Many of them either went to college or have a college degree.  I cannot stand the media.  I was sort of glad that their polls were off, yet, again.  I would be happier if people would tell them to STFU and not tell them who they voted for - then again, maybe many of them lied for that purpose.

It is sad when people are shamed for who they voted.  It is their right to vote for whoever they wanted to vote.  If you do not like it, accept the difference and respect one another.  Good grief - you would thought the whole process was a WWE special.

Sorry for the rant - I just hate reading all of the negative crap.  Yes, yes, you have your right as an American, but hey, at some point, you have to learn to let it go.  You cannot keep dragging it up every single minute of the day.  The election is over - life is important - focus.

With that, maybe I can find solace in the simple things while the rest of the world wants to wallow.  You see, I have a lot of scary things going on and I will be damned if I am going to let this election worry me.  Life goes on and I need to tend to me.