As much as I love hockey, I do care about the players on my favorite team and tonight, something very extraordinary happened and sobered me. One player, as he was coming off the ice, passed out and was treated for a cardiac issue. Come to find out, this player was diagnosed with an irregular heart beat during "spring training."
Right now, my thoughts and prayers are with his family and him. Nothing is quite as scary as seeing something like that happen before your eyes. I am elated that he is in stable condition and love that he wanted back on the ice. However, I would rather see this wonderful player get better before hitting the ice again.
The incident reminds me of how precious life truly is.
Monday, March 10, 2014
Sunday, March 9, 2014
Getting the Balance Right...
Let's see - I am finishing my 9th week of this journey to find the "new" me. The one thing I cannot seem to get a handle is getting the balance right. Every time I get back to doing the Glucerna Hunger Smart shakes, I have a lot more blood sugar drops. It is pretty annoying.
Yesterday, I did my strength training. I think I might have avoided the achy muscles had I walked more the first time. Since I was up early, I walked for about 5 minutes, then went through my work out as the trainer described. Next, I got back on the treadmill and walked another 30 minutes. I did not experience the soreness I had on Wednesday and Thursday. Now, only one of two things could be the issue: I either did the exercises wrong or by walking a bit more, that resolved the issue.
I did buy an exercise ball to do some of the strength training while I am at home. I figure a little bit here and there would help.
While I was at "The Y", I saw some of the exercise classes in session. I loved seeing the Zumba class as well as the step aerobic class. They look like a lot of fun. I also watched the people doing the spinning class. Wow! I was really impressed.
I think the decision to join "The Y" was a good one. Granted, this particular Y does not have a pool, I am fine with that. The people and facility are both very nice. I might try the yoga class there as well. I know I may never be super athletic, but I would love to be in better shape.
The one thing I am trying to keep in mind is not to do too much. Sure, I would love to join these classes and give them a go, but I do not want to overwhelm myself. I know I feel better when I am more active. I have noticed that I do handle myself a bit better. I still have low point bouts, but those do not go on for days and days. I believe those occur when I have doubts with what I am truly capable of being able to do.
God's Message to Me:
Yesterday, I did my strength training. I think I might have avoided the achy muscles had I walked more the first time. Since I was up early, I walked for about 5 minutes, then went through my work out as the trainer described. Next, I got back on the treadmill and walked another 30 minutes. I did not experience the soreness I had on Wednesday and Thursday. Now, only one of two things could be the issue: I either did the exercises wrong or by walking a bit more, that resolved the issue.
I did buy an exercise ball to do some of the strength training while I am at home. I figure a little bit here and there would help.
While I was at "The Y", I saw some of the exercise classes in session. I loved seeing the Zumba class as well as the step aerobic class. They look like a lot of fun. I also watched the people doing the spinning class. Wow! I was really impressed.
I think the decision to join "The Y" was a good one. Granted, this particular Y does not have a pool, I am fine with that. The people and facility are both very nice. I might try the yoga class there as well. I know I may never be super athletic, but I would love to be in better shape.
The one thing I am trying to keep in mind is not to do too much. Sure, I would love to join these classes and give them a go, but I do not want to overwhelm myself. I know I feel better when I am more active. I have noticed that I do handle myself a bit better. I still have low point bouts, but those do not go on for days and days. I believe those occur when I have doubts with what I am truly capable of being able to do.
God's Message to Me:
you can be an echo of your past, or the glory of your future.
Friday, March 7, 2014
Trying New Things...
I subscribe to Diabetic Living and pick up Cooking Light magazines from time to time. I found some really interesting recipes to try. Last night, I made their lighter version of chicken parmesan with spaghetti. It took a little time to put it all together, which was a mistake on my part. New recipes, I usually try on the weekends because of time. However, the only problem I had with the meal was a bit too much crushed red pepper flakes. I will probably alter the recipe to use stewed tomatoes because I do not need a heavy sauce and like chunky pieces of tomato.
There is a recipe for fried chicken that I may try because heaven knows, I certainly could not pick up any fried chicken at the fast food places and eat it. LOL
God's Message to Me:
There is a recipe for fried chicken that I may try because heaven knows, I certainly could not pick up any fried chicken at the fast food places and eat it. LOL
God's Message to Me:
true faith flowers from and through doubt.
Thursday, March 6, 2014
Humility and Looking for a Creative Outlet...
I have a huge tendency to over think various things. As I was getting ready to rush off to work yesterday, I thought about my blog entry and realized I made a huge mistake. I know I said I laughed when Random Cathy told me about my being inspiration for her trying her FitBit again. The reason I laughed is that I could never see myself as being someone's inspiration. Cathy has been a great source of inspiration for me. She is such a pure positive light and I love how I feel after spending time chatting. I actually look at the positive than the negative.
I have been working on doing more looking at the positive than the negative. However, with problem-solving situations at work, I tend to look at the negative because there are some courses that can lead you to have more headaches than others. However, I see that from the work stand point.
I have been working on writing a fictional story. Not really sure where it all will go, but writing has been something I have done off and one for quite some time. I was looking at Collin County Community College Education To Go courses and thought I would give it a shot. Sort of exercise the creative part of my brain for a bit and step away from the technology. Perhaps, this would bring a fresh breath of air to me.
I am still sore from the exercises that I did with the trainer on Tuesday. I am going to make an effort to go to the gym today and do those exercises again. Tomorrow, I will go looking for a foam roll to help massage my thighs. That seems to be the one place where I have the most soreness. I tried doing some stretching exercises last night, but that did not help.
God's Message to Me for Today:
I have been working on doing more looking at the positive than the negative. However, with problem-solving situations at work, I tend to look at the negative because there are some courses that can lead you to have more headaches than others. However, I see that from the work stand point.
I have been working on writing a fictional story. Not really sure where it all will go, but writing has been something I have done off and one for quite some time. I was looking at Collin County Community College Education To Go courses and thought I would give it a shot. Sort of exercise the creative part of my brain for a bit and step away from the technology. Perhaps, this would bring a fresh breath of air to me.
I am still sore from the exercises that I did with the trainer on Tuesday. I am going to make an effort to go to the gym today and do those exercises again. Tomorrow, I will go looking for a foam roll to help massage my thighs. That seems to be the one place where I have the most soreness. I tried doing some stretching exercises last night, but that did not help.
God's Message to Me for Today:
when whispers do not get your attention, bricks will fly your way.
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
Negativitiy Hits!
Everyone follows a pattern to help them in life. For me, I realized the pattern for losing weight was a combination of two factors: Exercise and Portion Control. It has always worked in the past and seems to help now. I admit that I got the FitBit in an effort to help me find where I could be more active. The long and short of it - all I needed to do was walk. I never needed to run, jog, lift weights, or anything like that. Just walk.
Last night, a friend called to go on about how she bought the FitBit and it just was not going to work out for her. There was no way she was going to be able to get 10,000 steps in per day. Next, she did not want to enter her food in the system because she was doing another program. Also, was having a problem analyzing the sleep information.
I get all of this information right before I have my first visit with my personal trainer. That stuff weighed heavily on my mind and it should not have. This friend asked about the FitBit and I told her what it could do. All similar pedometer devices are going to provide the consumer with a program to track their progress and without any doubt, suggest that you enter your calories consumed to help you with your health. It only makes sense because that is what the public would want - "I want an app that does this!"
What I think bothered me the most was just the blatant negative. If you cannot get the 10,000 steps in, fine, look for something that won't require pressure on your feet. Bottom line, she was me a year ago, providing every excuse for why I could not do something. I did not want to be one of those people anymore. I did not want to be dragged down into the negative because I felt I was being a drain on my friends who were the most positive and inspirational.
Random Cathy and I met at the nail salon for some friend time. I know I talked a lot about the reunion stuff and losing the weight, but I felt good and not dragged down. I thought it was funny that she told me that I inspired her to give her FitBit a reprieve and try again.
The bottom line - I am not here to sell the FitBit program to anyone. What I am doing is a mixture of doctor's orders and overall, "Look! You are not happy with yourself and the only one to change that is YOU!" I am trying to do what I can to lose the weight - I want it off and I want to feel some sense of accomplishment. I just want to be healthy, so that I can do the things I have always wanted to do.
There are no guarantees in this life that my relationship situation will change, so I am not relying on weight loss for that. This is a journey I need to take in order to find out what other things are in store for me with less weight on my frame. What cool clothes could I wear? Would I be more fashionable and have the style and grace I have always imagined I could have? I won't know until I lose the weight. So, there is more here than meets the eye. It is all part of the theme for this year - Re-make/Re-Model.
In the end, there are many reasons for me to lose this weight. It is just time to do it.
By the way, the personal trainer at YMCA is super sweet and very positive. I like her and she is fabulous. I made it known that at my age, I am not looking to be ripped. Just looking to strengthen my muscles everywhere and tone it up a bit. All in accordance to being healthy and keep losing the weight. She was great with that.
Side Note: She is not a morning person like me so that is so great!
Today, my shoulders and legs still feel a bit like jello, but I will get over that soon. The exercises the trainer provided are easy enough for me to do, so I am looking forward to trying to do those again in the next couple of days. Time for me to get in some MI-5 and walk in place before heading into work.
God's Message to Me:
Last night, a friend called to go on about how she bought the FitBit and it just was not going to work out for her. There was no way she was going to be able to get 10,000 steps in per day. Next, she did not want to enter her food in the system because she was doing another program. Also, was having a problem analyzing the sleep information.
I get all of this information right before I have my first visit with my personal trainer. That stuff weighed heavily on my mind and it should not have. This friend asked about the FitBit and I told her what it could do. All similar pedometer devices are going to provide the consumer with a program to track their progress and without any doubt, suggest that you enter your calories consumed to help you with your health. It only makes sense because that is what the public would want - "I want an app that does this!"
What I think bothered me the most was just the blatant negative. If you cannot get the 10,000 steps in, fine, look for something that won't require pressure on your feet. Bottom line, she was me a year ago, providing every excuse for why I could not do something. I did not want to be one of those people anymore. I did not want to be dragged down into the negative because I felt I was being a drain on my friends who were the most positive and inspirational.
Random Cathy and I met at the nail salon for some friend time. I know I talked a lot about the reunion stuff and losing the weight, but I felt good and not dragged down. I thought it was funny that she told me that I inspired her to give her FitBit a reprieve and try again.
The bottom line - I am not here to sell the FitBit program to anyone. What I am doing is a mixture of doctor's orders and overall, "Look! You are not happy with yourself and the only one to change that is YOU!" I am trying to do what I can to lose the weight - I want it off and I want to feel some sense of accomplishment. I just want to be healthy, so that I can do the things I have always wanted to do.
There are no guarantees in this life that my relationship situation will change, so I am not relying on weight loss for that. This is a journey I need to take in order to find out what other things are in store for me with less weight on my frame. What cool clothes could I wear? Would I be more fashionable and have the style and grace I have always imagined I could have? I won't know until I lose the weight. So, there is more here than meets the eye. It is all part of the theme for this year - Re-make/Re-Model.
In the end, there are many reasons for me to lose this weight. It is just time to do it.
By the way, the personal trainer at YMCA is super sweet and very positive. I like her and she is fabulous. I made it known that at my age, I am not looking to be ripped. Just looking to strengthen my muscles everywhere and tone it up a bit. All in accordance to being healthy and keep losing the weight. She was great with that.
Side Note: She is not a morning person like me so that is so great!
Today, my shoulders and legs still feel a bit like jello, but I will get over that soon. The exercises the trainer provided are easy enough for me to do, so I am looking forward to trying to do those again in the next couple of days. Time for me to get in some MI-5 and walk in place before heading into work.
God's Message to Me:
as you surrender to divine providence in your life, you will feel lifted and carried and held.
Monday, March 3, 2014
Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy...
For a downside note, I am not completely all happy, happy, joy, joy because Chloe is at the vet's office. Today, Bo and she are getting their teeth cleaned and she will be getting her blood re-tested. I know God will do what is best for her, but I simply worry about losing her. I know it will break my heart terribly. She is what I have left that my mom loved more than life. So, I try to put my worrying into God's hands and hope that I can get some more borrowed time to spend with her. I remember when mom first got her, she was only 9 weeks old and she loved me so much. I was her "sissy" and even though she played rough, she was my little protector. These past several days, I have cherished the time I get to spend with her as well as the feeling of love when she snuggles up in the bed with me.
I can officially say that I have lost 30 lbs. I got on the scale this morning and it showed me that I weighed 283.5. I was truly excited and grateful.
My biggest fear is letting myself down at this point. With talk of Chloe being seriously ill and the possibility of losing her, that frightens me to no end. I am afraid her loss may cause me to spiral out of control again. I am trying so hard to just keep it together right now. It is completely insane.
I know that these fears are probably baseless, but at the same time, I remember losing weight before I got Bo. With the stress of work, school, and home, I let it all go. Another time, I let it all go because some guy stood me up and made me feel like garbage. I just have to resolve myself that should, God forbid, something happen with Chloe, I need to take time to grieve over it, but do not lose focus. It is not what she would want. She would want "Sissy" to be healthier and not sink.
God's Message to Me Today:
I can officially say that I have lost 30 lbs. I got on the scale this morning and it showed me that I weighed 283.5. I was truly excited and grateful.
My biggest fear is letting myself down at this point. With talk of Chloe being seriously ill and the possibility of losing her, that frightens me to no end. I am afraid her loss may cause me to spiral out of control again. I am trying so hard to just keep it together right now. It is completely insane.
I know that these fears are probably baseless, but at the same time, I remember losing weight before I got Bo. With the stress of work, school, and home, I let it all go. Another time, I let it all go because some guy stood me up and made me feel like garbage. I just have to resolve myself that should, God forbid, something happen with Chloe, I need to take time to grieve over it, but do not lose focus. It is not what she would want. She would want "Sissy" to be healthier and not sink.
God's Message to Me Today:
you matter.
Sunday, March 2, 2014
Going Into Week 8...
Starting tomorrow, I say good-bye to having regular, healthy food for breakfast and lunch. I will be back to doing the Glucerna shakes for the next two weeks for breakfast and lunch. I feel I need to sort out how to supplement my snacks appropriately to avoid any low blood sugar crashes.
I am only a couple of ounces away from being officially 30 lbs lighter. Wow! My hope is to lose a bit more before 3/27 when I see my endo for an update. I am trying hard to make sure I meet or surpass my 10,000 step goal. Since the version release, that has been a more difficult task because people want me to sit on the phone. However, the point is to make sure to be more active and I am not happy when I am not active.
Since I have started getting more active, I decided to join YMCA just down the street from where I live. I also signed up to get a personal trainer for about 12 weeks. I stand in front of the TV and walk in place every day. That is fine, but I need to be able to shape a bit. Not get ripped, but tone and strengthen.
I have already talked to my trainer and we are to meet on Tuesday. She is a very positive sounding person and likes that I am already doing a lot of the things she wants to see, counting calories, walking and etc.
I went out with a high school friend to listen to a fellow classmate's band. The band was really good. We had dinner at the place and I got full pretty quickly, so I am glad that part is beginning to take effect. I just need to continue drinking more and more water. There are some days I can get 128+ oz down no problem and other days, I just do not make it. I have found drinking water has helped considerably. The unfortunate part is I do not think I can ever get 2 gallons of water down me each day. Maybe I am wrong.
Yesterday, the weather was so beautiful and nice. Today, freezing cold. Winter is not going down without a fight. LOL
God's Message to Me for Today:
I am only a couple of ounces away from being officially 30 lbs lighter. Wow! My hope is to lose a bit more before 3/27 when I see my endo for an update. I am trying hard to make sure I meet or surpass my 10,000 step goal. Since the version release, that has been a more difficult task because people want me to sit on the phone. However, the point is to make sure to be more active and I am not happy when I am not active.
Since I have started getting more active, I decided to join YMCA just down the street from where I live. I also signed up to get a personal trainer for about 12 weeks. I stand in front of the TV and walk in place every day. That is fine, but I need to be able to shape a bit. Not get ripped, but tone and strengthen.
I have already talked to my trainer and we are to meet on Tuesday. She is a very positive sounding person and likes that I am already doing a lot of the things she wants to see, counting calories, walking and etc.
I went out with a high school friend to listen to a fellow classmate's band. The band was really good. We had dinner at the place and I got full pretty quickly, so I am glad that part is beginning to take effect. I just need to continue drinking more and more water. There are some days I can get 128+ oz down no problem and other days, I just do not make it. I have found drinking water has helped considerably. The unfortunate part is I do not think I can ever get 2 gallons of water down me each day. Maybe I am wrong.
Yesterday, the weather was so beautiful and nice. Today, freezing cold. Winter is not going down without a fight. LOL
God's Message to Me for Today:
the sounds of Nature can lift your spirits.
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