One might think I have lost all faith in Faith. There are times I sit and wonder if I have been forgotten in the grand scheme of life. I admire those who have someone and the relationship is going well for both parties.
I won't deny that there are days I wish I had someone in my life that loved me no matter what. Unfortunately, it is what it is. Maybe that will change, but time will only tell.
On the otherhand, I am very grateful for those things that I do have in my life. The ability to go do things that I want, if I want. I am not married to an abusive or cruel man. I have two dogs that I love dearly. I have a job where it has had its ups and downs, but I have a job.
The other day, I spent some time with a friend I do not get to see as much as I would like. She told me that she would be moving to New Zealand. I was shocked. I am happy for her adventurous side. I think it is wonderful that she wants to travel like that. I will miss her dearly. I know - perfect excuse to take a long vacation.
However, I felt this pit of loss already. I do not have many friends and the ones I do have, I cherish with my heart. Part of me wishes I could do the same, but maybe that is not really for me. I would love to travel, but part of me knows that this is "home." My friends have helped me develop a "home."
My hope and prayer for my friend is to always enjoy life to the fullest. I may not be there to do it with her, but I will always be there in spirit.
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