Changing a negative to a positive...

I love to cook.  The one area where I excel is making sweets.  My mother gave me the keys to baking some really wonderful and rare goodies.  I refined the process for making fudge.  After my trip to New Orleans, I figured I would work on making pralines.  I have two pretty popular recipes that taste testers at work really enjoy.

For the past month, I have been trying to get together for dinner with a few friends.  It is always something.  Last night, I took it personally.  Mainly because I tried to reach one friend several times with no response.  I end up at the restaurant waiting and no show.

I can understand emergencies, but at least, return a phone call.  If you do not want to hang out with me, tell me.  Sure, it will hurt, but I would appreciate the honesty.

The unfortunate part is I have all of these goodies I made for everyone.  I put in a lot of hard work and giving them away fresh is important.  I tried to keep it from being personal, but I was angry that I put my heart into making these goodies.

My father and his girlfriend joined me for dinner at a different restaurant.  I paid for dinner because they did not have to do that.  Also, this is a place I go where I am stood up.

I went to bed still upset.  The whole thing made me so incredibly sad.  When I got up in the morning, I saw the bags of goodies.  Rather than get upset all over again, it came to me to give these gifts to my friends at work.  They would appreciate them.  So, not all is lost and it gives me more time to spend working on my apartment.  If my friends decide to do dinner again, I will just pick up some gift cards. 

Today's Message From God:

Today,  we believe God wants you to know that ...

God is crazy about you.

God sends you fresh flowers every spring, a breathtaking sunrise every morning. If God had a wallet, your picture would be in it. If God has a refrigerator, your childhood scribbles would be on it.

Now, come on - God is crazy about everyone because all of those things, God gives to all of us every day.  :-)

Final thoughts:

Since seeing the specialist for my blood sugar, my levels have dropped considerably.  I am not feeling quite so wiped out these days and that is a good thing.  I still try to eat healthy.  Even with baking all sorts of sweet goodies, I have found some major restraint on eating that stuff.  That is the most amazing part for me.  Even when I am so depressed on things not working out, rather than fill my face with crap food, I maintained.

I still have a few things to get Christmas shopping wise.  I hope to knock those out tomorrow, then be free for the rest of the week.  My main goal is to clear out the apartment and get a really comfortable, cozy feel.  My home is my refuge from the harsh world.  The one place where I can go and just calm down.  However, I cannot calm down when it is a mess.