New doctor visit...

I probably should have figured this visit would take longer than 2 hours.  I had to leave work early to get to the center 45 minutes before my appointment.  I went through the normal "new patient" formalities.  Once done, I sat down with a cup of water and waited a bit. 

I did not have to wait long.  Technician came for me.  I got weighed (ugh!  Horrible reality slap in the face), blood pressure (a little high, but normal for me when I visit the doctor's office), blood sugar and A1C measures.  Here was when things got out of hand - not that I am making light of the situation.  My blood sugar was 458 (very, VERY bad) and my A1C was 11.5.  I got my retinas checked and all was clear, but the business regarding my blood sugar freaked the staff.

I am not making light of the situation.  However, it does nothing but irritate me when people are flying around me and trying to talk down to me.  I need to remain calm.  Yes, the situation is not pretty, but when I get irritated or annoyed, my blood sugar is not going to rectify itself.  Besides, isn't this the reason why I am here?

I was really annoyed with my general physician's office manager.  I had called the office the day I made the appointment and asked that my records be faxed to this office.  That was on Wednesday and it was Monday - nothing had been done.  I called again and got the office manager's voice mail again.  I needed the paperwork faxed before my appointment.  Grrr...  (Side note:  Office manager made a point of not refilling my prescriptions until I made another appointment with my GP, but I cannot get her to fax information to the specialist that her boss referred me.)

I must have a problem communicating because the "Educator" annoyed me when I was trying to explain my blood sugar situation.  She could not understand what I meant by I was doing "good" because all she could see was I was doing poorly.  I realized that they did not have my information, so I broke it down like this:

No - I am not doing good, but when I visited my doctor in late February, my A1C was 13.2, which is really bad.  Doctor suggested using Lantus, insulin, to get my blood sugar under control.  A month later,  I informed her that I noticed that my blood sugar was taking too long to lower.  That meant, even after 2 hours, my blood sugar was still quite high.  So, my doctor prescribed a low dose of Metformin.

By June, my A1C had lowered down to 9.3, which made me happy because my body was responding well and I was on my way to reaching my goal.  After that appointment, work just got crazy and life just went completely out of whack.  I explained the drastic number drop I got when I went on vacation.  Both the "Educator" and the "Specialist" stated that lowering the numbers that quickly is not good and could make me feel worse.  That might explain the situation with my feet.

I tied up the story that when I saw the doctor last Wednesday, my A1C was 10.9.  Come to find out, my fasting blood sugar was 185.  Still, I had no real clue why my blood sugar, today of all days, was so high.

The specialist wanted me to take 10 units of one of the fast acting/rapid insulins.  The educator watched me administer the shot - that was weird.  I have to lift up my shirt, pinch an area of my stomach around the mid-section area, then insert the needle and press down on the top of the pen.  (Funny, I hated the whole idea of this, but now, it is just second nature.)

The "Specialist" checked me out - feet, reflexes, and etc.  Next, she told me about the insulin she wanted me to take along with another medication that has Metformin in it.  I will need to keep track of my blood sugar and send in the readings.  Try to get some good readings, so that she can see patterns.  She was really nice and gave me some samples, but also submitted prescriptions for the meds.  I go back on 1/2 for update.

This is the first phase - getting the blood sugar under control.  The next phase will be to get me to use hormonal insulin, which will help with weight loss.  Maybe by eating better again, I can drop some weight and that will help with the other.

Trying to stay positive, but today was a bit nerve wrecking.

Let's see what God wants me to know today:

Today, we believe God wants you to know that ...

forgiveness is more powerful than revenge.

Vengeance only begets vengeance. It is a destructive cycle. But when you forgive, you inspire change in both yourself and the other. Forgiveness has the power to transform people and create better world for all.

There are some things that have happened in my life that I have a very difficult time with forgiving.  Then, again, there are those times where I just say, "Let God handle it", but those acts still sting in my mind.  I suppose I can forgive, but asking me to forget is impossible.