After some serious consideration through the past week, I decided to make a couple of small changes in my life. One of which is taking a small break from Facebook. I have been dealing with way too much anger and sadness. I know I am having to deal with a lot of pain due to my back and knee, but I began thinking about what was really dragging me down for the past year.
I allow other people's drama to affect me. Some of that drama, I am helpless to do anything because it is just more than one person can manage. One cannot save all lives, human or otherwise. Perhaps, one thinks I am simply a very selfish person, but I have more than enough animals for caring. I have bills to pay. Hell, after my mom's passing, I have my own life to sort.
I spent so much time worrying on issues with animals and other people's drama. I lost friends over my own opinions and beliefs. I thought - what is it all for? You get in touch with people to make sure that they are okay and doing well. All you deal with is drama.
For a few people who I made friends, I was very happy for their achievements and the very cool projects they undertook. When successful, I was ecstatic for them. I tried to support as I could. However, somewhere along the line, that all got dragged down into some muddy mess.
Maybe with time, life will get better, but I am going work on myself and discover what makes me happy. Try hard to shake off all of this pain I feel each day. Look for the positive and the beautiful whenever possible. Sit down and understand what it is to be truly grateful. I should be happy and I have not. Now, I must change this and move forward, rather than remain stagnant.
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