I have allowed myself to become way to obsessive about a particular thing. It is not the weight-loss, although, making these changes was because of that obsession. Today, in a more positive light, I realize I cannot make certain events/people happen. Sometimes, I live too much in a dream world where things are not very realistic. What I need to do is shake that off and be real about it all.
I won't go in much detail because I am ashamed to have fallen into that trap, yet, again. Reality hits hard, but it is always the truth that cannot be denied. In abstract, there are things I can make happen and those are projects I have control. Those are the things I should direct those obsessive tendencies. Not the ones where there is absolutely no chance in hell of happening as I have no control.
On an even more positive point, I am under the 280 mark. I weighed today and my weight is 278.2 - I have lost 35 lbs since January. Last night's workout still has me feeling tired, but not weighed down. I sweated a lot, but I expect that while lifting weights. It is not easy, but it is very important to me to build up my muscles so that I can endure longer. I have 12 week sessions planned out, so I have that commitment to do it. I hope that it allow me to inspire myself to try yoga and other classes there for mixing it up a bit and not overdoing it.
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