For the past two weeks, I have eaten somewhat healthy foods for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I am still working on reducing my portion sizes. I have achieved an 18 lb loss since 1/4, so I cannot complain about that. However, my scales show I have a 0.4 lb increase, which disappoints me. I know - have patience!
Next week, I go back to doing shakes for breakfast and lunch, then healthy snacks and dinner. I know I can do this. Right now, I need to quit playing the numbers game and focus on the long term. Rather than worry over things I cannot possibly control, I need to worry about the here and now. I think that is too much of my problem with everything. I worry over the things I cannot control. I need to learn that life does not always go the way you want, no matter how strict you were with something or the fact that you did everything you could. I must learn to leave it in God's hands and trust that he will help me see what is really best for me.
Last night, I went to the Dallas Stars game and felt incredibly guilty for having bought a small popcorn (well, what they consider small) and a diet Dr. Pepper. I felt I was cheating on my diet when I still had a load of calories to eat. I kept telling myself that it is okay to have popcorn every once in awhile. The goal for this lifestyle change is that I can eat whatever I want, but in moderation. This is the key. What I should do is pat myself on the back for not having bought the large pretzel or the cinnamon roasted nuts. I by-passed those items last night without even a thought. Usually, I will think about how good the nuts smell. I do not think it even registered in my head. In fact, I do not think I even smelled the hot wings being floated into the arena. That was definitely a first.
I should see some difference in my pocketbook for the upcoming weeks. I won't be spending quite so much at the grocery store. Also, I am not spending very much cash out of pocket, either. I like that. I feel the life style change will do more than just get me healthier, but also save me a bit of cash.
Overall, I feel that I have had a very positive attitude with these changes. I have not cared for the low blood sugar drops, but I think that over time, that will sort itself out with decreasing the medication. I still get cranky with work issues, but you know, there is not one thing I can do about someone's decision making process. I can only do what I know to do and go with the punches. I just wish that others had a bit more fore thought put into their decisions before laying it down in concrete. I hate to say it - some people never change and expecting them to change is insane.
Off I go to try to work hard to make something happen. Following that old mantra, if you work hard enough, your dreams will happen. I certainly hope so.
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